Am I Enough? : "The Jody Shoe"
“NO! Put the pills down, Anne. You don’t have to do this,” she says anxiously as she stands at Anne’s door.
Anne is holding a handful of pills and a bottle of water. She’s sitting quietly, trembling and softly crying.
“Anne, please. Talk to me.” her friend says.
Anne turns to look at her. She responds in a trembling voice, “NO ONE CARES! Everyone wants more and more, but no one cares about me. Am I not enough for anyone?! I hate my life!”
“Anne, I care. That’s why I’m here and I’m listening.”
Anne looks down at the pills and balls her hand into a fist. Her friend nervously begins to walk over. “Anne...look at me...”
Anne looks at her balled fist and clenches her water bottle to her lips.
“Anne…” her friend steps closer.
All of a sudden, Anne has a blank look on her face as if she’s made up in her mind that this will be her last day.
Her friend reaches out to touch her shoulder. “Anne...you’re enough for me.”
Anne turns to look at her blankly.
“I said you’re enough for me, Anne. You’re more than enough. I don’t need anything from you and I don’t want anything. I love you just the way you are. You’re enough…” She’s trying to keep her composure as she speaks, but her voice is swallowing tears.
Anne’s mouth begins to pucker and tremble. She looks down at her balled-up fist.
“Anne, please believe me. I love you and you’re more than enough.”
Anne drops the pills and hunches over as she screams her cries. Her friend wraps her arms around her and cries along with her saying, “I love you. Believe me, you’re enough…”
How many times have you found yourself in situations where you’ve asked or thought to yourself, “Am I enough?” There is something to be said about the fact that we deeply desire to be sufficient for someone or something. The thought of not meeting that standard scares us. For some of us, it even scares us to the point of depression, low self-esteem, and feelings of worthlessness.
Personally, this question led me to consistently have suicidal thoughts. I was in a very bad place after losing someone I loved and I constantly questioned my self-worth. Did I say enough in class? Did I work hard enough at work? Did I do enough for him? Did I show enough love to them? Am I enough? Thank God for my faith that pulled me through this tough time!
We spend so much of our time playing cookie-cutter roles, trying to mold ourselves and our lives into what other people want us to be. Let’s be honest, it’s exhausting and it drains us! You may be at a point in your life where you look in the mirror and you don’t even recognize the person you’ve become. You’ve spent so much time attempting to be something for someone else that you’ve forgotten how valuable the essence of YOU is.
Whatever you are battling with today or whatever challenge stands before you, I want you to know that YOU are enough! In spite of your imperfections, your past, your fears, and your mistakes, you are enough.
Maybe a parent walked out or a longterm relationship ended. You’re still enough.
Maybe you lost a job opportunity. You’re still enough.
Maybe you attempted at a dream and failed. You’re still enough.
Maybe you gave love a second chance only to have your heart broken again. You’re still enough.
Maybe you had a child and are wondering if you’re fit for parenting. You’re still enough.
Maybe you’ve invested so much in people and no one seems to appreciate you. You’re still enough.
Maybe you’re at a breaking point in your life, deciding whether you’ll give life a chance. You’re still enough.
You’re enough to press on and fight. You’re enough to fulfill your calling and your dream. You’re enough to go after anything your heart desires. You’re enough to change someone’s world.
It’s time to unclothe yourself of anything that is not you and fully embrace who YOU are. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalms 139:14). So the next time you stand in front of the mirror today, tell yourself, “I am enough!”